Well, I must say my life doesn't seem to ever be dull. So far it seems ever since I got back from College I have made pretty drastic changes year after year. These changes are always a pretty big deal. I will fully admit having to make such decisions every year is getting exhausting. I would love to finally be able to plant my roots somewhere and just stay there for awhile and be able to relax and make more simple changes instead. Well, I am not quite there yet but I know eventually I will be. This year can mark another year where I am faced with making another decision that could potentially change the direction of my original thought out plan since moving back here to Colorado.My original plan since coming back was to work with this current company for a year or two, gain the experience and then take an adventure somewhere. Colorado is not a place I can or will consider my forever home. Frankly, I do not like this state. I grew up here, I should love it! I am far from loving it I'm afraid...
So, here I am a few weeks ago doing what I do best and trying to make a living at what I enjoy... I received an e-mail. This e-mail was a job opportunity, a company I worked for prior who came to me directly asking me to come back. Now before I get into detail let me give you the low down...
I am currently working on 100% commission however, I am designing kitchen and bathrooms and creating these great relationships that I LOVE! These projects are what makes everything worth while. I will say I am extremely proud of myself for taking a leap of faith and having the confidence to jump into this job like I did. This type of work I do is almost always a commission sales type of industry so It is hard to get away from that and I will fully admit when $ is good, its good....but when nothing is coming in, its bad. Even if you span your commissions out to compensate, sometimes still.....you run into a little trouble when you get into what they call a "Dry Spell". So, in case anyone was wondering...I have hit this Dry Spell in the last couple months. Even going through this, I continued to tell myself that things are going to get better because I truly felt that this year is going to be busy in this industry and with this company and I was not going to let this get me down. This type of up and down finance struggle is typical in the first 2 years of starting out on pure commission with a dealer so I knew it was not going to be easy. Knowing this, I was going to push through it like a champ!
Now, you can imagine....I was not looking for any other opportunity, but that e-mail fell into my lap just at this impeccable timing. This opportunity would still allow me to design, however not be as creative as I am now in my current job. I would not have the 1 on 1 with clients, contractors, custom home builders as I do now. I would not have the freedom to leave the office to go on measures, job sites, or shopping for finishes with my clients. I would not be managing my own projects but more or less managing Spec home plans and designing kitchen and bath layouts for a large home builder and picking out color schemes for model homes. I would have a cubicle, I would work under a corporate environment, I would have health insurance, a 401K, vacation, and sick time. M-F 8-5 job with a really good salary. Keeping in mind, I have worked for this company before, this company did lay me off at one point which lead me to move to Indiana. I did love my boss, she was great and I did enjoy working for them. The question is...do I want to go back? It is a great opportunity and the timing is unbelievable. This is why I feel like I should not ignore this offer. This offer financially gives me the ability to not stress on what my paycheck is going to be every week or month or if I am even going to get one! I also will have health insurance that I currently am paying out of pocket for that covers absolutely nothing.The problem...I cannot suppress my creative urge that my current job provides and I know if I leave this job, I am going to miss it in a way. All this time I have worked my ass off, building relationships I would just be walking away from....these are MY projects and I am emotionally attached to them. I don't want to walk away from my current projects or these clients whom have put there trust in me.
Logically, I know what the "right" choice is and that is to take the other job opportunity and if I don't take it most will probably think of me as an idiot. I do not want anyone to think I am complaining either. I feel so blessed that both companies take pride in my work and want me to work for them. I have worked 8 years in this industry and I am so glad that my work is being recognized and appreciated. I know hard work and determination does pay off. I picked a very specific industry, a hard industry but you know what? I love this industry and I cannot see myself doing anything else.
In the end, I have to do whats best for me...right now. Do I follow my heart? or do I follow my head? It may come down to flipping a coin! Is another job change in store?
Stay tuned for the final decision!!
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